Cruel-World

《残酷的世界》

Written by Huang, posted on July 2, 2022

不清楚是不是因为最近没有任何思绪冒出来,我在不断寻求某种痛苦让自己痛苦起来。不知能不能将这认作是『非理性』的抗争:克氏认为自己一定会在三十四岁生日前死亡,我认为自己必将承担最多最严重最难忍受的痛苦。能否将这认作是疾病的前兆?或者说:我将同荣格演讲中某个人那样承担一段时间的痛苦后,听从建议不再探求,于是余生过着良好的生活?——也许今天早上的梦对现状有几分启发,但是我已经忘记了那场梦。只记得一个陌生的物资贫瘠的国度,也许是我将要脱离极端想象力造就的梦境,真正走向具体的生活?

这首歌用最直白的语言去刻画『我』,以一种普适性的手段——它并不深刻,但是直击人心。

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Verse 1

Oh cruel world
Will you knock me down
Until I’m begging on my knees?

残酷的世界
[难道]你想要将我毁灭
直到我跪倒求饶吗?

And oh beautiful world
Will you push me
Until I’m soaring with the stars?
Until I’m flying with the birds?

美好的世界
[难道]你想要把我向上推
直到我与星辰、与飞鸟一起翱翔吗?

Chorus

Let me know if I have what it takes
Push me to the point my heart breaks and aches

请告诉我:如果我能够
让思绪不再飘荡,能否让灵魂化作灰烬

Remind me what I’m doing this for
Let me go on and fight for more and more

请警醒我『我为何而活』
让我不断前进,不断抗争

Verse 2

And when I drift away
When I lose my way
My body starts to decay

当我偏离那信念
当我迷失方向时
我的身体开始腐烂

My body starts to decay
And I put cigarettes in the ash tray
Everything will be okay

我的身体已经开始腐烂
当我再点上一根香烟时
似乎一切变得可以接受

Chorus

Let me know if I have what it takes
Push me to the point my heart breaks and aches

请告诉我:如果我能够
让思绪不再飘荡,能否让灵魂化作灰烬

Remind me what I’m doing this for
Let me go on and fight for more and more

请警醒我『我为何而活』
让我不断前进,不断抗争

Bridge

When I stand in agony
Absently
And my thoughts turn bitter and angry

当我与虚无结伴时
出神地
我的思绪变得越来越苦涩、越来越愤懑

Send the cavalry to my balcony
And free me from my insanity

请派兵到我的阳台来
请将我从这[无穷无尽的]精神错乱中解救出来


And even though I hurt and I hurt
I will always be a dreamer at heart
And even though we’ve drifted apart

尽管我不断被伤害,被打倒
内心深处,我仍旧是一个幻想家
尽管我们早已分道扬镳

I’m still a dreamer
A dreamer with a heavy heart

我仍旧是幻想家
一个有着深沉痛苦的理想主义者

Chorus

Let me know if I have what it takes
Push me to the point my heart breaks and aches

请告诉我:如果我能够
让思绪不再飘荡,能否让灵魂化作灰烬

Remind me what I’m doing this for
Let me go on and fight for more and more

请警醒我『我为何而活』
让我不断前进,不断抗争


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